Assalamu'alaykum.
It was really enlivening that time when I disgorged out my opinion vehemently over the issue that was being discussed in class. The discussion went on well at first moderated by Madam Izni and slowly it started to spark a blazing fire after students shared out their unheard and critical opinions that contradict to one another. As much as the numbers of extroverted students jumped in, they were also quite a few of introverted students who did not really participate in the altercation through verbal expression but having their thoughts manifested through their body languages that were highly intriguing. Topic that was acrimoniously debated was regarding the Egyptian Revolution and it impacts on the Muslim world.
That was 4 months ago.
Since I have been back here in IIUM now for almost a month, I noticed quite a few changes have taken place in moulding and shaping up my personality to be a bit different. Previously, I was really undeniably outspoken. It was so obvious that I would participate in all classes regardless of the subject. I just could not bear letting my thoughts and ideas unheard because that might be the reason of the current occurrence turmoils. I would always experience this unusual rapid heartbeat before raising up my hand and throwing out opinion. Believe me, it was really fascinating.
Now, much to my surprise, I happen to be weirdly silent in some of the classes. I just do not know why but it happens every time I enter the class and sit down in the first row while waiting for the lecturer and the moment the class starts, I will choose to keep my mouth closed and listen to what others have to say about any possible issues that will be brought up. Is it just me or this is some sort of effect after a long-journey abroad?. I do know about the power of listening that Babah has been sharing with me all this while and the fact that at times I tend to talk a lot and forget others, but it is not that often.
Take for instance, I have Developmental Psychology class every Monday and Wednesday morning at 8:30 AM in the morning so right after I have performed the Subh prayer I might just want to get a nap for 20 minutes. Having said so, I attended the first 2 weeks of class and Subhan Allah, I did not say nothing much at all except for perhaps 2 to 3 questions that I meticulously asked. My lecturer seemed to be so disappointed of our passive behaviour. She did prompt us to talk and some of my classmates responded but I kept myself muted. The topics that were delivered by the lecturer were all clear to me, Alhamdulillah and I was not blur at all.
Maybe it's been a very long time since I last 'ranted' my views. Insha Allah, as time passes by, I will be gaining the momentum back and share out my opinion a bit more maturely and well-organised.
As for now, I am still struggling to adjust myself back into the society and things that I am up to now; Da'wah, family, friends, researches. Oh Allah, please do not let me get myself duped with false dreams. Amiin.
It was really enlivening that time when I disgorged out my opinion vehemently over the issue that was being discussed in class. The discussion went on well at first moderated by Madam Izni and slowly it started to spark a blazing fire after students shared out their unheard and critical opinions that contradict to one another. As much as the numbers of extroverted students jumped in, they were also quite a few of introverted students who did not really participate in the altercation through verbal expression but having their thoughts manifested through their body languages that were highly intriguing. Topic that was acrimoniously debated was regarding the Egyptian Revolution and it impacts on the Muslim world.
That was 4 months ago.
Since I have been back here in IIUM now for almost a month, I noticed quite a few changes have taken place in moulding and shaping up my personality to be a bit different. Previously, I was really undeniably outspoken. It was so obvious that I would participate in all classes regardless of the subject. I just could not bear letting my thoughts and ideas unheard because that might be the reason of the current occurrence turmoils. I would always experience this unusual rapid heartbeat before raising up my hand and throwing out opinion. Believe me, it was really fascinating.
Now, much to my surprise, I happen to be weirdly silent in some of the classes. I just do not know why but it happens every time I enter the class and sit down in the first row while waiting for the lecturer and the moment the class starts, I will choose to keep my mouth closed and listen to what others have to say about any possible issues that will be brought up. Is it just me or this is some sort of effect after a long-journey abroad?. I do know about the power of listening that Babah has been sharing with me all this while and the fact that at times I tend to talk a lot and forget others, but it is not that often.
Take for instance, I have Developmental Psychology class every Monday and Wednesday morning at 8:30 AM in the morning so right after I have performed the Subh prayer I might just want to get a nap for 20 minutes. Having said so, I attended the first 2 weeks of class and Subhan Allah, I did not say nothing much at all except for perhaps 2 to 3 questions that I meticulously asked. My lecturer seemed to be so disappointed of our passive behaviour. She did prompt us to talk and some of my classmates responded but I kept myself muted. The topics that were delivered by the lecturer were all clear to me, Alhamdulillah and I was not blur at all.
Maybe it's been a very long time since I last 'ranted' my views. Insha Allah, as time passes by, I will be gaining the momentum back and share out my opinion a bit more maturely and well-organised.
As for now, I am still struggling to adjust myself back into the society and things that I am up to now; Da'wah, family, friends, researches. Oh Allah, please do not let me get myself duped with false dreams. Amiin.
"Lo! Allah will cause those who believe and do good works to enter Gardens underneath which rivers flow, wherein they will be allowed armlets of gold, and pearls, and their raiment therein will be silk. (23) They are guided unto gentle speech; they are guided unto the path of the Glorious One. (24)"
- Surah Al-Hajj, Ayat 23-24
- Surah Al-Hajj, Ayat 23-24
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